Saturday, August 06, 2005
im so bad. and mean to maii parents. haiis. tuddae they came at 11am. lols wen they're supposed tu cum at 12.30?! hahahs. budden i damn badd. haiis. i jus play comp thn leave them downstairs lorrx. haiis. damn badd. budden maii mum. yahh. i told her abt de air con ting (: thn i made them wait fer me lor. fer lunch. they were waiting fer me to eat lunch wiid them =/
thn ltr went tu TM lorrx. thn bought PINK SLING BILLABONG bag (: fer some ppl they wuld understandd yy ii put tose in caps x)) hahhas. thn bought a shirt oso. thn duno yy. frm OP ther. i started tu mood swing agains. haiis. stupidd me. thn go popular. blar blar blar. thn ltr go bak first floow. thn gort de escalator tu basement rite. maii dad went down. thn i was like 'go down fer wad?! nth ther oso' thn i nber go down lor. maii mum oso. haiis. she stay wiid me mahh. thn maii dad was down ther fer so long lor. he was finding his wae up i guess =/
thn ltr go mc eat. still show attitude. thn after tt took taxi home lor. maii mum told me to go bak hotel wiid them first until finish dinner thn go home. thn i dun wan. haiis. thn they gave me money =/ okay u all mite tink tt its good. burt i feel damn guilty. i treat them so badd thn they still gimme money to spend. their love fer me. haiis. andd tis is wadd i did to repay them. thn ltr gort off taxi i jus wove to them. nber even look at them. thn ltr i walk abit thn look bak rite. they were still in de taxi looking at me. haiis. thn i feel damn guilty. thn now im crying. haiis. feel so badd fer wadd i did. wth was wrong wiid me lor. haiis. its like. maii mum miss me tts de reason y they came in de first place. thn tis is how i treat her lor. its like. their like living de last of their lives oreddy. i shld help them live it to de fullest. thn i liddat treat her. its like wtf lor. i feel like a bitch. haiis. i told maiiself ler they are goin bakk budden i still lidat to them. wads wrong wid me lor. haiis. they must really feel damn guilty and heartbroken. yeas tts wad yiguan told me ytd. its nort tt they dun understand me is they are nort given a chance. haiis. like wtf mans. i hate maiiself. fer wad i did. im sure. maii mum cried =/ mabe maii dad too i duno. burt i noe tt wen i cum singapore she will cryy. =/ thn iim crying now oso. tinking of wad i did.
&devil disguises 5:37 AM
